This is how life is. Sometimes we need something to spark a change in us. At one time I would never have contemplated a baby, it just wasn't for me too much to do. I wanted to go to University, then I wanted to taste living in London and then Brighton. I'd been travelling round the world. All these things took up time and these were things I felt like I needed to do. So time marched on.
It brings me to the present and as time marched on so did the health issues with my parents. So much so that now I have a wonderful child to show them, but show them I cannot. Some days I feel my father is here with me as Isabella stares up at his paintings on the wall. I feel she senses him near at least. My mother I'm not so sure about. Maybe I try not to think about her so much as this hurts too much. She wanted grandchildren so much. I remember one night when they'd been out she said to me " where did we go wrong" and she was talking about children. That made me feel so sad.
Well they have finally got one and I know they would think she was the most amazing thing on the planet. I know I do.
So, I am trying to make sure my partners parents are involved, even though they are such a long way away, down south. I feel it is important for Isabella to have at least one set of her Grandparents involved in her life. Even though it is at a distance.
The lack of family suport does make it more tough on me and my partner. We don't have that easy hand off to Grandparents like younger families do. The support of anyone other than us just doesn't exist. This is the tough part, you have to rely on one another so much. It does make you stronger as a couple, but it can be very hard at times.
So, think very carefully if you put off having children until later. It does have it's plus points, like having more money and being more level headed, and of course ready, but you do have a few things missing sometimes and they are quite important.
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